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Nov. 3rd, 2009 @ 09:07 pm Writings from the Vault (Part 1)
So, in talking with Todd, I located some old writings of mine. So, here is one of them (Circa 2003).


I stand alone in a field alone except for my thoughts, though those are what I fear the most. I draw my sword and start practicing with it, the moonlight glimmers off of the polished metal blade, the light it sprays on the ground is mimicked in the stars above. A cool breeze rustles the other wise motionless grass. as my blade cleaves the air. I know I’m alone out here, so alone, but yet I remain accompanied. Specters of those I long for, but can not reach, specters of who I should be, of who I was, who I might be accompany me where ever I go. They Haunt my every thought yet I still feel alone. As my blade continues its dance with the moonlight the specters come and mock me, blame me, and shame me. I practice faster and harder in hopes to dispel these phantasms, yet the faster and harder I work the stronger their taunts get, the more their words physically harm me. I fall, in agony as their words rip at my very core. I close my eyes so I don’t have to see their gruesome shapes, but still they haunt my vision. They started far away, but now grow closer, bigger, louder, stronger. I have nothing left, all I knew is gone and all I know now is pain. One finally gets close enough to me where I can feel its hot, unearthly breathe on me, its taunts killing me from with in. Something with in me breaks, I slash at it with all the strength I can. The blade cleaves it and the air where it was. Was? The Slash dispelled the specter, the phantom that had so haunted me. Though is was one in a multitude of them, I feel unhindered by mortal bounds. All human consciousness slips away as I start a dance of death, with my blade and the moon singing in unison as one after one I cleave these phantasms and unhinder my self even more. The Dance continues for who knows how long, with each vanquish I feel stronger, more empowered. I destroy myself hundreds of times and those I care for thousands of times. I slice those I loved in half so they would no longer haunt my mind. When all were gone, when all was silent, I collapse, and emit a howl of rage, pain, anger, mourning, and all other emotions mixed in one. No man, no matter how solid his fortitude would not be afraid of what ever released the noise. I have slain all the monsters that haunt me, all is silent, I am alone at last, but in the frenzy I had killed the specter that did not haunt me, but was me. I had killed myself, now I am truly alone, without purpose, without hindrance, neither alive nor dead, I just am me. So I remain forever alone, with nothing but my ponderances for company.
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Oct. 22nd, 2009 @ 11:53 pm Ouch
Today I played some paintball with people from my office. All was going well, got to the last round, was moving through the brush, leaned on a tree, it broke and dumped me into the creek. I then spent the next 15 minutes wading through nearly 3 feet of water and mud to to a place where this is a bank and one that isn't to steep for me to climb. At times I was Knee deep in mud that just kept sucking my legs in. Eventually had to crawl out to disperse my weight over the mud. I am so freaking sore right now......
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Oct. 14th, 2009 @ 10:28 pm Future Purchases and falling to the Dark side
So as all (two) of you know I collect Anime figures. I have considered getting the three below. One of them crosses the figure "Dark Side" and I don't know if I'm ready to step into it.....

http://hlj.com/product/GIP02065
http://hlj.com/product/KYD02105
http://hlj.com/product/KYD02104

Then I've considered getting http://hlj.com/product/OBT03153 to use as a more accurate and bendable figure model.......




Have I fallen to the dark side?
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Oct. 12th, 2009 @ 01:22 pm +X Otaku cred
So we were having a Pizza, Beer, and Rock Band night here at the office. We were playing Beetles Rock Band and I was on vocals. I was scrolling through the songs and found the only one I knew that hadn't been played already, it was "I've got a Feeling". I sang it and did very well, I was also the only person there that had ever heard of it. Now you would think I was a Beetles fan or music snob, nope. The only reason I knew it is because I have it on my iPod, the version from BECK:Mongolian Chop Squad that is.....
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Sep. 24th, 2009 @ 10:09 am This is why we (Otaku) can't have nice things
Mangahelpers.com, the main site for raws and scans in the world hs had some interesting documents leaked.

http://foolrulez.org/manga/bin/read.php?manga=Manga+Helpers&chapter=Business+plan

http://freetexthost.com/0mx2pnuhpw

They are going to approach Viz (distributor of Naruto, Bleach, and One Piece) about becoming an EXCLUSIVE online distributor for viz mangas, charging a "reasonable" 40 cents a chapter.

Analysis by the guy who broke the news.
http://foolrulez.org/blog/2009/09/mangahelpers-viz-sell-scanlation-scans-hayate-media/

Manga Helper's attempt at a face saving response.
http://mangahelpers.com/news/details/255

This is why we can't have nice things. some group gets to high in the britches and tries to turn a profit and can potentially ruin it for everyone. Hells, in the proposal they reference all of the "Illegal scanlations" and compare what this is doing to Viz to what Napster did to the RIAA. Greedy bastards....
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Sep. 8th, 2009 @ 09:44 pm Desperately seeking Pastel Raws
While I know only two of you actually read this blog, I'll still post here.

If anyone can provide scanned raws of the Monthly Pastel Chapter (Printed in Kodansha's Magazine Special) starting from chapter 117 please post here. Also post if you have a store where you can purchase said magazine and maybe we can work something out. I've run out of options =/
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Aug. 24th, 2009 @ 09:56 pm Deviant update
Well, I've updated my deviant art page with two recent colorings I've done using my wacom.

http://rathgood.deviantart.com/
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Aug. 23rd, 2009 @ 12:24 am RIP
Early Saturday morning, Slapshot, my cat of 17.5 years was put down. According to my parents, sometime during the night he blew a blood vessel in his head and would not stop bleeding. They took him to the vet to be looked at. Cobb, the vet who repaired his diaphragm and amputated his leg looked him over and determined that the time had come. Even if they tried to fix anything, he was at the age where the anesthesia would probably kill him. He will be cremated and buried in our back yard. A part of my childhood died today.

RIP Slapshot
March 1992 - August 2009
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Aug. 19th, 2009 @ 01:06 pm ouch
So I went bowling last night for the first time in 3.5 years. Currently my right arm and right hand are more or less dead to the world. Methinks I need to work a little on strengthening them again if I plan to bowl regularly.
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Aug. 13th, 2009 @ 10:16 am An update!!??
Just a brief one. For those that care, I'm now working as the translator for the Manga series Pastel. Its being released via NS-Scans ( http://noobiesnack.com/ ). I am referred to as Rathgood there. So far its a nice experience. More to come (maybe?) later.
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Apr. 5th, 2009 @ 12:07 am Manga Review take 1
Well by Todd's suggestion I ahve tried my hand a review of a manga, it follows.

Series: Holyland
Author: Kouji Mori
Artisti: Kouji Mori
Genera: Seinen
Status in Japan: 18 Volumes (Complete)
Scanlation Status: 44 chapters

Between the Worlds of Boys and Men here lies Holyland. Where Laws don't matter and the strongest rule. In that world "HE" roamed. Kamisiro Yu, he was there.

Holyland is the place where each person belongs, where each person can be his or her self. For the lead character, Kamisiro Yu it is the night life of his city, where delinquents rule, the weak are targeted, and strength is all that matters. The first time we meet Yu he uses a one-two punch to knock out a delinquent and then retreats into the crowded streets of the night. Yu however, is not a thug or delinquent. He is a small unassuming 15 or 16 year old that is targeted by those delinquents. Bullied horribly in Middle school, to the point where he stopped going to school and just wanted to make himself numb. Burying himself into games to deaden his emotions. That is until the eyes of pity he sees everyday finally get to him and he snaps, trashing his room and coming to the one solution. To end it all. On the verge of ending it, his deadened emotions and senses scream out to live. He stops his attempt and heads home. Along the way he stops by and picks up a book on boxing, thinking that if he knows how to punch he will know how to make it hurt less. Instead he finds away to clear his mind, by counting and over time and thousands of punches a day develops his one-two combo. With this he enters his Holyland and must continue to fight to stay in it or disappear from it and fall back into his insulated world of numbness. And thus he fights and continues to fight for he does not fear the pain, but fears losing his place, his Holyland.

While this has a similar base plot to the Shounen manga "History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi", where a bullied kid trains and eventually falls into a world of conflict from it. This however is far darker with more violence and the aura of desperation surrounding Yu to not lose the one place he can be himself. This tone permeates the manga and makes it all the better. It makes the action, fights, triumphs, losses all feel far more visceral and real then other combat oriented mangas. Yu never gets absurd power-ups mid fight, nor does he win fights without noticeable injuries. There's no hidden set of rules or decorum for fights, its knock-down drag-out use what you can combat. Where the only thing that wills save you is your own strength, backup, or the cops. This is all attributed to the stellar pairing of the writing and the art. The latter of which is superb. The lines are crisp and characters look real. The kicks, punches, throws, etc are dynamic and if you don't feel like punching something when you've finished a fight then there's something not quite right with you.

From the art I move back to the writing. As previously stated, its darker and more real then most fighting style manga, but that still does not keep it from having its share of stereotypical characters, not that that is a bad thing at all. The first and foremost being Yu himself and his meek and submissive mannerisms when not in a fight, its very much like Shinji from Evangelion as he needs to be forced into a corner to switch into badass mode. While its not as played out as you standard shounen hero, it still can be a little annoying at times. Less so since he had a Heroic Blue Screen of Death (HBSOD, that is a moment that shakes them to the very core causing them to crash)moment that switched him into a berserker mode, where he cares about nothing but making those responsible pay for what they did. This happened even to the point where he would have killed someone had it not been for the interference of the "Rival boss" character.

The "Rival Boss" character is known as Aizawa Masaki, the "Charisma of the Streets", a high schooler who once was nationally ranked in boxing until he threw it away for the street fighting life. While he doesn't outright fight Yu, you can tell he wants to, but not until Yu reaches his maximum ability. He even helps Yu out of a Lynch; gives him the answer of how to stay in his Holyland; and teaches him a technique, which Yu later masters. There relationship should be an interesting one to see develop over the remainder of the series and to see if he indeed does challenge Yu.

Though back stepping a bit to the HBSOD moment, the cause of which was the lynch (group beating) of his first friend, Kaneda Shinichi, one of the few people that sees Yu for who he is and nothing else. Story wise he is a cheerleader type, with no real combat ability (thus far) and as such has been sued for two main things thus far. The first being a friend to help remove the loneliness and isolation felt by Yu and the second to be the catalyst for Yu's HBSOD moment. As such he feels at times more like a "Zoidberg" then an actual character, but its still relatively early in the series so it might change.

There remain two characters left (or character types really) to discuss. The first being the "villain", however thus far there is no single one. The "bad guys" of this series are the delinquents who beat others up for money, fun, etc and/or spend their time hoped up on drugs beating anyone up who gets in their way. While this works well right now for this series, there is a chance it can get repetitive very quickly. While I don't want it to become like Dragon Ball Z with an every escalating power level of the "Next big threat" I would like for a leader to appear. Some one that the other delinquents follow and that can organize them in some way. A final boss of sorts, that will test Yu and give him a final target that will allow him to secure his Holyland.

Lastly there remains the ubiquitous love interest character that every manga seems to have. While Yu shows no emotions towards the opposite sex that could be perceived as interest there still is one that might eventually fall into this role. That person is Aizawa Mai, the younger sister of Misaki and a student in the same class as Yu. She first shows interest in Yu early on as he seems similar to her older brother. This is further developed on as she warns Shinichi that some older students are trying to bully Yu at school (though this more goes towards Shinichi saving the older students from a royal thrashing) and later on more so when she comments on Yu skipping school to her friends. This then leads to her seeing a more wild looking Yu covered in blood and causes her to ask her Older brother for help (unknown to either that each other knew him). Where this will go I do not know as its more hints and no outright character progression. But, as with watching Misaki's and Yu's interactions it will also be interesting to see the Relationship between Yu and Mai progress (or not move at all) in the coming chapters.

Overall this is a very good manag, well written and drawn and so far has not fallen to a lot of the common pitfalls of fighter mangas. I look forward to reading more once scanlated and recommend this if you are looking for a more gritty manga or just something new to read. Please note though that I am not responsible for any urge to kick, punch, throw, etc when reading this manga.
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Mar. 14th, 2009 @ 04:37 pm I can Haz Deviant Art?
Yes I's Can!

http://rathgood.deviantart.com/
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Feb. 27th, 2009 @ 09:00 am Dreams
As of late I have been having a reoccurring dream. While the details vary, the basic plot remains the same.

A woman I love (normally played by an amalgam of Anime lead females) is being attacked to be taken away for some reason or another. I fight back, but I am not strong enough, never strong enough to help her. Everything I try fails, doors don't lock, I trip, or other things. I then blackout and wake up in a bed (often with bandages wrapped on various limbs) and begin crying over my failure. Then either I walk into a common room or people join me and to my relief and joy the woman was saved, but not by me, by others that we qualify as friends. The woman and I then tearfully embrace and fall asleep in each others arms.

Always at that point I wake into the real world slightly disoriented as I realize there is not and never was anyone in my arms. I also notice the dried tear paths on my face when I look into the mirror as I try wipe the newly forming tears away.
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Jan. 6th, 2009 @ 10:29 am Of nightstand books

So I was reading one of my nightstand books the other night and got to a part about pathfinding algorithms. I read up on the A* algorithm and I realized something. I had implemented it by accident in one of my goof around programs. I found this to be funny. That is all.

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Jan. 4th, 2009 @ 10:13 pm a brave new year
Today was an average sunday for me. I spent it in my lounging cloths, wrapped in my blanket-cloak (Queen sized blanket that I can wrap around me into a floor length cloak). I watched TV, surfed the net, read manga, and cleaned my apartment. Just like I do every sunday (well minus the cleaning part ... bachelor that I am), However, sometime during the day, something happened, I don't know when and I don't know how, but for the first time in months I feel hope. Its hard to describe in words but I can focus again. My mind has been freed from the malaise that has gripped it for months now and I can see the world of code again!

I'm going to be going back to the gym tomorrow and get back into the habit that 6-8 weeks of bronchitis/pneumonia broke. I'm going to start taking pictures again. I'm going to sketch again. I'm going to code again.

The future looks bright again and I don't know why.
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Nov. 11th, 2008 @ 11:59 pm ring tone question.
Should I get "Still Alive" from Portal as a ring tone for my iPhone? I'm leaning towards a big yes.
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Oct. 11th, 2008 @ 11:45 pm Music of my Mind part 2
After finally taking some time I have taken (more or less) what I saw in my mind and tossed it together in iMovie.



Comments welcome (and wanted). Until next time, Ja ne!
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Oct. 9th, 2008 @ 07:48 pm Music of my Mind
Have you ever heard a song and immediately had images flowing through your mind for it? Its happened with me a few times, normally for AMVs (Anime Music Videos for you normies). However, never has it struck me as strong as Nickelback's new Song.



Listen to the song with your eyes closed and you will see what I mean. I'm interested in what comes to your minds, I'd share mine but I'm afraid it would influence the others.
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Sep. 21st, 2008 @ 08:32 pm My new lego display
My brother procured two lego displays from his work location. I have one of them now, and pictures of it are below. Now the big question, do I melt the glue holding them together and strip them for parts.....









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Sep. 7th, 2008 @ 07:31 pm The musings of a random mind
Recently I have found my mind restless and wandering again. Its times like these where I find myself starting projects which never finish or starting plans which never come to fruition. This time I hope to focus the restless energy into actually getting things done. The things I hope to get done?

- Take the GREs
- Compile a list of Grad Schools to look further into (Suggestions welcome)
- Start baking bread again
- Continue generating recipe ideas, cooking them, and writing them down.
- Design and build more Cosplay props
- Improve my artistic skill and get some of the images in my head onto paper
- Continue and work on robotic and semi-robotic devices.
- Play around with Garage Band and see what amusing music I can make
- Music + Anime + iMovie = ?

Ambitious? probably.
Doable? Very.

Why do I think its doable? Why not? Though on a serious note, when my mind is restless I have to keep it occupied, something mindless TV watching does not do so I need a focus. Where as the first 4 are more one-shots or once a week kind of things, the others should keep me busy. Here's to hoping I can actually focus this energy into worthwhile tasks. I will (try to) keep you all (yes the two of you) appraised of any interesting developments on any of these.
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